April Fools Fall In Love (Redux)

What the fuck was i thinking? I flirted and somehow i fell. Before falling, i thought he was already down there. But now, i think i might be alone. Another full moon in two days. Maybe a good time to make wishes. What would i wish for? For him to love me? Or to make sure i don't love him?

I can barely remember when i noticed. Now-
am i tired or depressed? I won't love him till i know him or at least until i know he loves me.
He can't make me. But i wanna say, "I love you."
I used to want to say, "I hate myself," so things are changing, bad poetry and all.

April Fools Fall in Love.

It's been a long time since i've been in love and i don't see it happening any time soon. Being alone runs in my family, although my mother is the one sister in her family who is married (and quite happily!) She is not married to my father, but she is married to my dad, if you know what i mean.

I've been flirting with someone, but that's as far as i figure it'll go. It's as far as i want it to go. I'm enjoying it thoroughly, but i need to put an end to it. I'm fairly certain that he has feelings for me, as they say, and i don't want to lead him on, as they continure to say.

Tomorrow is a full moon, an auspicious time to perform spiritual practices, like meditating and being honest.